Rewind

Lets take a peak into my past for a little bit. This will help you understand what I am going through right now. I want to start off by saying that I am not writing any of this so that anyone will pity me or be my friend. I just wanted to be honest and show everyone that its okay to talk about things. It helps you think more clearly in my opinion. Also please dont ever ask me my age because I will not tell you. Age is nothing but a number! It does not make a difference whether I am 8 years old or 75 years old, people of all ages can relate to eachother.

Okay so I think I want to start this off from a year and two months ago. Everyone knows what its like the feel lonely right? Well thats how I felt one night at a party with my friend Julie. We were hanging out with a guy that she had been talking to and a few of his friends that we had just met that night. One of his friends was the one that actually invited us to the party. It was a very good night with good music, nice people, and beer pong!! lol I was single and ready to mingle. The guy (Peter) that had invited us was single also and I could tell that he was interested in me but I did not find him attractive at all!! I was keeping my eye on one guy... too bad he had a girlfriend. His name was Jake. He was long, tan and handsome. I was attracted to him right away but the girlfriend factor kept me far away. I was really not the type of person to ruin a relationship. But then I heard him bad mouthing her and saying how much of a bitch she was and he didnt want to be with her so that made me rethink everything.

The next night all the same people were at the place, and I wanted Jake. Drinks started flowing and the flirtation between us became immense. I couldnt stop myself. It all just felt right so I made a move on him. We started dancing together and everyone else at the party did not like it. They worried about his girlfriend and the fact that he had done this to her once before (I did not find this out until later). So as we are in full dance mode, here comes his very stocky cousin Freddy ready to fight. One punch to the face and Jake was on the ground. I was in shock! Standing there in disbelief I see that a  hand is waving in my face and some short chick is calling me a slut. This was Freddy's girlfriend Beatrice. She was so annoying and rude that I just blocked her out and sat down. Meanwhile Peter leaves the party and Jake wants to follow him because he is his best friend and he is worried. Jake turns to my general direction and asks if anyone would like to go with him and my friend Julie tells me to go along. As we are walking I just get this crazy urge to push him down rip his clothes off. I did not do this but I did push him down and made out with him. I wanted him and he wanted me but I didnt think anything would happen between us past this night. We got caught in the woods and were told to take our drunk asses home. I got up, found Julie, and started heading to the car (she was designated driver!). But as we are almost to the car a voice from about 20 yards away calls to me. "Arent you going to say goodbye!?!" I turned around... it was Jake. I really could not believe this one. So I walked over and said goodbye, okay thats all he wanted. But no... he asks for my number!! I could have fainted right there! This gorgeous guy wanted MY number!! So I gave it to him and Julie and I went home.

(I'll tell you what happened the next morning tomorrow!! I hope you enjoyed reading a little bit about my life!!)